Just a random thought, when I read my past entries, I always think I was so ignorant and young. Not past entries written this year perhaps, maybe from my previous blog? The entries then remind me of someone really...young? haha. Maybe I'll read this a few years down the road then start laughing at myself again. Haiz, or maybe it's just me, always so kuku.
Just one month or so to prelims. Sounds really scary. Should start mugging hard too:)
All the best!
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heyhey! Haven't blogged in a while. These few days have been a little....rushed? Time seems to fly yet again. The week after binloh's birthday simply flew by with last minute revisions and CT 2 seem to pass by as quickly too. The after exams celebrations were even faster, affirming the fact that time seems to fly when you're really enjoying yourself. :)
I can't believe I'm about to make 'the' choice. For years I've been waking up, going to school, coming home, doing my homework, sleeping, then waking up...the cycle repeats itself. Isn't it for you too? But what is all these for? I believe I'm not the only one clueless about my future career and all those stuff...as my CT pointed out, this will be a milestone, a huge decision that will alter the rest of our lives. At the age of 18 (to be more exact, 17 +), do you know what you want to do in future? I don't...isn't that regrettable? If a light would appear and show us the way! haha..but that only appears in fantasies I guess..
Fairy tales...I used to pester my mother to read one story to me each night before I went to bed. Among my selections were popular classics like Snow White and the Seven dwarves, Rapunzel, Jack and the Bean stalk, Goldilocks and The Gingerbread Man...these titles can still bring a smile to my face when I think of them. Childhood I suppose, has this magical ability to lighten our hearts and make us smile from inside out:) We were taught from young, that if people were good, kindhearted and selfless, even though there were obstacles, challenges and trials, we will ultimately find bliss in the end and live happily ever after, just like how our Cinderella did. In my opinion, our lives seem to stay stagnant at the chapter where the clock stroked twelve - no glass slipper, no prince, no happily ever after. I look at my parents, my father, who works so hard to give my sister and I an education; my mother, who tries to earn more and more money to buy things she want which occasionally are for us. I asked my father, what were your dreams. He said he didn't had a choice. He had to work, for a pay, he said. I look at them, and so many other typical adults and I wonder, will I ever turn out to be like that? Dreams, aspirations, Cinderella's dreams were fulfilled, will mine ever be? Newspapers seem to churn out stories of successful people, entrepreneurs, people of the arts, chefs, those who had achieved their dreams. But how many people never get what they want... Is this the result of fear, fear of risk, not daring enough to dream, peer pressure, society's expectations, family obligations, financial problems...so many issues we face when we talk about reality, a place devoid of fairy tales and fantasy, where an assured path to happiness never exists. I'm so pessimistic ain't I? haha.
Okay, looking on the bright side, if we were ever so daring to dream, and to put our dreams into reality, we can have a choice. I don't want to have to tell my children (if I would have any:)) that I didn't had a choice, simply because I didn't give myself the chance to choose. "If you work in a job you love, you never have to work a single day."
And so be it:) I will work hard and minimize any chances for regret. I will stay happy and love the people around me.
Mmmm...a blog is so much less private than a personal diary, something I used to keep before the millennium of technology. Just a random thought, would it be shocking or pleasantly surprising if I was to one day allowed to see all the visitors to my page? :)
Alright, update soon:) All the best in your career decisions!
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