I blog because I want to express my thoughts, my feelings and everything I wanna say but I can't. Actually I like people to read my posts because it allows them to know things that I don't and can't express literally in words=)
somehow my thoughts flow more freely through my fingers or an alternative, my pen=)
There's this friend in my life.. When we first started to be friends, I really enjoyed our friendship quite a bit because it brought laughter and joy into my life. I was quite happy about it. Then I realised that I started to feel that you were more than a friend. I talked to merv about it, and he tried to talk me out of it cos he had a bad impression of you. Haha. But no matter. After a while, what he said got me thinking. Was I liking the feeling or liking you? It was then that I decided I shouldn't be getting too ahead of myself. So I decided to reorganise my thoughts, and tried my best to be friends. Guess what, it worked for me(: but somehow or another, it seems like you stopped being a friend to me. Was the closeness of the friendship wishful thinking on my part? Or was that simply an image of you that you wanted to create for me? I really don't know. Friends...will treat each other as such too?
Relationships between humans are just so complicated. sighh...or maybe I'm getting too sensitive again.
The choir tees look a bit....not very nice..haha..but okay la I think=)
VS performance tmr.
Venice trip...hope my stuff all fits into my luggage! I'm really glad I still fit my leotards from dance last time! I have pink tights too! but guess I'm not gonna wear that underneath the gown. so weird with pink feet peeking from underneath. heh.
I hope I won't feel too cold over there. And my clothes...hope they'll look nice! Haha..at least..presentable! I'm vain too=p but I'm sure the rest of the girls have many clothes to show off too! OHOH. I hope I won't wear the same thing as another girl! haha.
alright, logging off soon, need to pack my luggage! and mug. =p
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hey guys! thanks for laughing at our adhoc video (GO ADHOC!) which made joce and I feel very happy cos our effort was worth it! At the same time, remember to chiong for the final lap WE CAN DO THIS! :)
Giam was rather unhappy today. And I was unhappy as well because I feel that I cannot relate to her, which made me feel like a bad friend, can't even help my friend share her troubles.
There are many small little wishes in my heart, and I hope they all come true:)
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Heeeelooo.....
Life's been really fun...and busy!
But happy as well.(:
We had a Chemistry test today, and despite my strong morals, I could not resist temptation and took many peeps at the paper earlier before assembly this morning. (thanks to sean:D) There were still quite a few questions I couldn't do as I didn't bother to find out the answers. Anyway, we should cheat convincingly. Right? :)))
Choir's been quite fun I think...the drilling is a little boring, but apart from that, I feel that Mr Kwei's pracs are getting more and more interesting! I particularly liked the practice today. I think I'm beginning to feel a bit more like how I did the prev year when we sang with seniors. Speaking of last year, during the combined sectionals for sops and altos when we were clearing up the fast part for can...ticumnovumbennnne....invociferrateone I stood together with carolyn and jolene beside me and it felt so much like last year...I feel so happy and warm inside.
Sighh..however, the adhoc did a countdown thing to venice, sov and the day juniors step up, and the time I have left in VJ choir is so little...I can't believe 1 year past just flew past like that. I didn't know what my seniors meant when they asked us to treasure our college/choir life last year, but now when I finally do there's so little for me to treasure. *wistful smile
I wish that Venice will still be a month away, and I wish SOV can be three months away or something. Choir ending so soon is so sudden for me. I believe it will be so for the people who have sang alongside me as well...putting their heart into singing their very best and wanting the very best for this choir. Well...maybe I shouldn't start getting so emo beforehand la..wait till the time comes I think..(:
Been talking with yongkee quite a bit, got to know some of the juniors more, a great part played by the combined dinner we had tonight to celebrate Astrid's birthday. Happy birthday girl!(:
The 10 noms were so nice and did Italian dictionary booklets for us so we could converse in Italian over there! (or try to anyway haha!) I wish I know how to properly pronounce the words though! I think my copy wasn't very nicely done....haha yongkee decorated it merilyn said. And there's a power ranger infront wonder who did that..=p
I have been wondering about things these few days, whether or not I should trust people so freely. Or I should stop having expectations about people, but that would mean I might just keep giving and giving and giving and I don't expect people to return anything and sometimes I think I might just dry up.:( Maybe I should be more stingy with my love. If I don't love my friends so much I won't be so sad when they do something to make me sad. And giammie would feel that my love will be so special cos I will not be giving it out so often anymore. Sigh..butttttt....I don't think I can do it. Come just give me tears, I'll rather have tried then lose an opportunity to be friends.
Dry hair dry! This is one of the nights I wish I didn't had so much hair.
I really wish we can go to Venice and win the competition. Please please please.
Choir prac again tmr, hope it'll be a prac I'll like:)
byez.
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