So many things are happening nowadays, it makes me feel dizzy sometimes. I don't know how to think sometimes, whether or not my thoughts are going in the right direction, whether or not my thoughts are wrong. The more confused I am, the more cautious I get, the more mistakes I make.
My thoughts affect my decisions, so I ask for forgiveness if any of my actions/speech has affected you or offended you.
I really want to become someone that is more sacrificial, kinder, more considerate...you know, more Christ-like? But it seems like I'm still a horrid girl, no matter how hard I try to change, to think better thoughts, to refrain from straying down sinful paths, giving way to impatience, anger, and thus executing(woah) wrong actions that might lead me down a path of regret for a long time.
I can't help but be slightly emotional now. It's so stressful, with CTs hounding my back, with all the frustration and pressure that I feel in another area of my life, with my illness stopping me from singing my best, problems of relationship with people (friends, family).. But I guess these problems are always existent. It's the attitude that we face them with!
So we must be optimistic, have trust, believe in ourselves, and never give up! What a nice moment for a sudden omph for success! Jia you for CTs you guys, let's make Venice even better than the Austria we could have had!
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